Sometimes a song says it all...

I love this song.  I've heard it before but never really listened to the words closely. I heard it again last night after a talk with Taylor about Joe. I was telling her that he would want us to know that he was ok.  Sign from above...maybe... I don't know, but it made me feel good.
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Meet my children...

This is Taylor.  She is my oldest child, currently a senior in high school. She plans on going to school to be a nurse.  She has been an easy child to raise and I am sure that I have been spoiled by that.  Taylor sings and plays the piano at church for youth services.  I love watching the Lord work in her life.

This is Madelynn.  She is my second child.  She is most like me.  She is a basketball player, loves to read and wears her heart right on her sleeve! Not sure what she is going to be when she grows up but I'm excited to see what the Lord does in her life.

This little girl is Melyssa.  She is my third child. She loves to be active. You can't keep her still very long at all. 

This is Victoria, we call her Tori. She is the fourth girl in our family.  She is hilarious!! I think God gave me her for entertainment!! You just never know what she is going to say!  I could write a book with all the things she says!!!

And this is Jonny.  The baby of the family and the only boy.  He is the sweetest boy I've ever met.  I may be a tad bias though.  He has this momma wrapped around his little finger, and he knows it!!!

 

These are my reasons for going on with life.  My reasons for making the most of every single day. 



 

For this child I prayed; and the LORD hath given me my petition which I asked of him:

1 Samuel 1:27

Two years have passed...

Tomorrow will be two years to the day that Joe made his journey to be with Jesus.  I have had some bad days leading up to this anniversary. September 29th was especially difficult for me, that being the anniversary of his heart attack.  I have kept most of my bad days to myself because I feel that people look at me differently now that I am remarried.  FYI being remarried does not take away the pain of being widowed. I will never not be Joe's widow. 

So...tomorrow is another anniversary and so I am bracing myself for the emotions that are sure to come.  I will spend a lot of tomorrow thinking about Joe and I will be sad for my children; for the time they missed with him.  For the future they didn't get with him.  I will give myself the day to be sad. I wont try to stop the feelings of hurt, sadness and even anger. It is when we put a lid on our emotions that they get stronger and stronger until they are finally pressurized enough to overwhelm us. So I will roll with the emotional tide and know that this too shall pass. 

I don't think of this as planning to have a bad day or planning on being sad, I know that it will happen and I'm not going to pretend otherwise.  There is nothing wrong with grieving.  Even the Bible tells us this "Seeing the crowds, he went up on the mountain, and when he sat down, his disciples came to him. And he opened his mouth and taught them, saying: “Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. “Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.".

So with this knowledge, I can face tomorrow.